It's been awhile.

Where her things are kept.

We & I have had alot the last few weeks and been crazy busy so I have not been able to post.

On my due date 4-6-12 I packed away all of Lucy's things. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done. I put her very special things in the box I recieved from some wonderful women in my life, including her easter dress, her coming home outfit, and an outfit Mary had specifically picked out for her and I believe that was the hardest one to pack away. I know how much Mary wanted to see her in that outfit. I packed away her u/s pictures her booties and mittens I bought for the hospital. It was so hard to put those things away and say goodbye to them. But I know where they are if I ever want to see them.

On Easter Sunday God gave me one of the greatest blessings. I was able to hold it together when I saw the babies and baby pictures, it was very hard but I did it. But when I walked into the church I saw my dad and my sister sitting there. I needed them more that day then I could ever say. I made it through the day but it was incredibly hard to do so. But I did.

A couple nights later I had a 2 1/2 conversation with my father. I can't explain the conversation, or what it did for me but it has helped me come to a different place in my life. I still hurt, and I miss my sweet angel so very much. I know she is ok, I know our family will be ok. And it will take a while for us all to come to a place where we are at peace with the loss of our daughter & sister but I know one day we will.

We love you Lucy Kate and will miss you forever.